okay my ideaa of the perfect first date mestilah berlaku time aku dah kahwin. i love sweet and nice guy i don't care if he is not romantic. aku suka lelaki yang cuba usaha buat sesuatu sampai buat aku nangis terharu dengan apa yang dia buat. surprise perhaps :) first dia tnya aku whether i'm free or not. then tiba-tiba aku balik dia dah pack foods and clothes untuk pergi picnic dekat laut *OMG that would be nice! I LOVE SEASIDE VIEWS!!! :D lepastu he bought me a beautiful necklace and whisper to ear by saying he loves me and never let me go *tearing eyes (banyak berangan nampak sangat jiwang karat) after that jalan-jalan dekat tepi pantai gurau-gurau senda calit pasir dekat muka dia lepastu solat jemaah sama-sama then tidur :)
lagu nur kasih ni keep repeating okay pause sekejap. alright now i can think straight like normal people does. hmm i just read something, a painful thing. i can feel the pain even though it's not about me. okayy malas nk jadi bloody english :P aku kehilangan idea. bengong betul. *nana dgn ain memang tak berenti nak kacau aku mencikkk!
aku esok class pukul 8 dan aku tak boleh nak tidur. apa aku nak buat?
p/s: kadang-kadang orang yang kita sangka baik itulah yang setan sebenar.
hmm let see then my favourite movie i think it's..... jeng jeng jeng
Movie Title: Do Re Mi Fa So La Si Do
why I like this movie?
Sebab aku rasa movie ini yang paling menyentuh jiwa raga auwhh. like serious aku tak pernah tengok movie macam ni. jalan cerita dia lain daripada yang lain. selalu nya cerita korea kan lelaki tu yang mati tak pun perempuan tu yang mati tapi yang ni tak the good thing is of course pelakon lelakinya kacak belaka haih ini tak dapat dinafikan hehehe :P
okay let's start with day 1 hmm my favorite song. i'm kinda love this song
The Script - Breakeven
i know it's not The Script who are singing in that video well i like maddi jane's version more. so guys enjoy :)
so here's the lyrics
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven
Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no
What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding 'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no
What am I gonna do When the best part of me was always you And what am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces (One's still in love while the other one's leaving) I'm falling to pieces ('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh 'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no
What am I gonna do When the best part of me was always you And what am I supposed to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces (One's still in love while the other one's leaving) I'm falling to pieces ('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)
Oh, it don't breakeven, no Oh, it don't breakeven, no Oh, it don't breakeven, no
p/s: i'm kinda listen to all her covers hehe peace out
okay disebabkan aku rasa 30 Days Challenge tu macam best *tgk azza macam seronok je jadi aku pun rasa nak try jugak. *broadband aku da berfunction seperti biasa jadi boleh la melakukan rutin hari-harian seperti menyepak-nyepak blablabla apahal?!
*angkat kening sebelah, aku hari ini berusaha cehh tiba-tiba -_- tade aku bosan sebenarnya. petang nanti ada quiz terbaik aku study ntah apa apa aku study. ala easy je pasal computer apa itu computer kalau kau yang baca ni tak tahu aku kasi kaki dekat kau. lain la kau macam bibik fara yg mula mula tu. kesian aku dekat dia. aku tengah syok main HAA! fikir apa tu jangan la kotor sangat aku main komputer la okay sambung balik aku bukak tu bukak ni bibik fara tengah menyapu dekat tangga then dia tanya aku
bibik: neng lagi ngapain? aku: err main komputer*muka blur sket bibik: itu apa ya? aku: err ni komputer bik. bik tak tahu ke? bibik: nggak. bibik nggak pernah lihat. kelihatannya seperti tv. fungsinya sama nggak dengan tv? aku: err tak *aku pening
*aku lemah betul dengar dia cakap dia tak pernah nampak komputer haih.
maknanya negara Malaysia lebih maju daripada negara Indonesia ini sebab orang asli pun pandai main komputer. so Indonesian tak semua diperdedahkan dengan teknologi yang ada sekarang ini. well aku tak nak cakap pasal positive dengan negative dia sebab semua benda ada kebaikan dan keburukan dia.
p/s: lecturer aku ni even dia pregnant dia still nampak hot :)
i'm having fun at this place. this place was superb i bet you guys like it. http://spbresort.com
okay i'm kinda spend my weekend with my friends. disebabkan boyfriend ain datang so apa lagi macam biasa la HOLIDAY. macam last sem pergi Permai Beach Resort so kali ni ktorg pegi Sematan Palm Beach Resort. Sematan ni da dekat jgk la dgn Kalimantan. sbb aku tade passport so tak boleh nak pergi Kalimantan. okayyy let's talk about this place. SUMPAH LAWA TEMPAT DIA *APAHAL CAPS LOCK NI *EXCITED EXCITED hahaha. bukak je sliding door chalet dia nampak laut memang seronok la kan. tempat dia nice+comfortable siapa yang nk bawak family dtg ke or nak honeymoon ke *ehem ehem tekak kering haa tmpt tu mmg best la lepak. quite sunyi, damai, mengasyikkan, tenang and etc. senang kata mmg BESt la. okay enough with this.
*sorry no pictures. terlupa la nk tangkap gambar well happy sgt smpai lupa hahaha
okay kalau aku letak gambar ni memang aku rindu sangat dekat mereka ni. :(
*i really hope that i can spend my time with them at that place
hari-hari yang dilalui penuh dengan gelak tawa. *tiba-tiba semangat sastera aku kembali. aku memang tak puas hati dengan digi. aku baru bayar bil hari tu geram punya pasal. mcm tak boleh nk sabar. call aku bagai nak rak macam bil aku RM1000 haih. aku pun pegi la bayar kn kalau tak hari hari dia call aku. roomate aku kali ini nampak macam alim ikut peraturan disebabkan aku dah bagitau dia yang aku duduk bilik ini secara illegal dia mula memberitahu yang aku akan di"blacklist"kan oleh pihak kolej kalau dia dapat tahu. aku dah haih budak ni tak boleh nk berkompromi betul. follow the rules la katakan. aku taktau nk cakap apa aku cuma cakap mcm ni jje "tak pelah kalau macam tu, bfre pihak kolej tahu just diam diam jela. no need to tell anyone senyap terus. kn senang. no need to nag about the rules i know all the rules kalau aku dduk luar kau nk bayar sewa rumah aku tak kan? so just shut the fuck up. tak payah nk kecoh sgt.
sejak akhir-akhir ni hati ni mudah nak sensetip tau haih. okay tiba-tiba nk cerita macam tu. tadi kemain gelak ketawa sepanjang jalan kan. *typing skill dah berkurang, nampak beno lack of exercise. okay aku dah gemuk naik berkilo-kilo what to do konon je esok nak puasa *diet purpose, da habis ganti ye anak-anak. aku memang sangat tergoda kalau tengok nana dengan ain makan kuangajo betul dorang ni!
tadi aku terasa macam aku dapat hidayah bila aku baca ayat ni
"Wherever you are, wherever you are facing, Allah knows.When you think you've tried everything and don't know what else to do, Allah has the answer.When you feel alone, and your friends busy with their affairs, Allah is always on your side.When you've been crying for so long and your heart still feels pain, Allah counts your tears.If you feel tired and weary, the effort seemed futile. Allah knows how hard you try:)"
aku terasa macam dah banyak sangat dosa yang aku buat. tak dpt dinafikan solat aku berlubang-lubang tak cukup 5 waktu, Al-Quran last sem baru baca aku rasa kalau takde bacaan untuk kelas agama confirm aku takkan sentuh Al-Quran. terukkan? aku pun malu dengan diri aku then aku tertanya dengan diri aku sendiri bila nk berubah? aku sendiri pun hilang daya nk fikir kalau fikir pasal ini. bila aku baca buku akhir zaman aku takut itu pun sekejap, kadang-kadang aku terfikir apa aku nak jadi kalau aku terus macam ni hati pun tak tenang, kepala pun serabut. aku rasa macam hidup ni tak lengkap bila aku tak ingat yang Maha Besar.
*mengeluh...
due to this one book i feel like my life is in the process of changing, changing to be good. i made a vow to myself and in front of my friends and i will keep that promise. so my friends tell me if i tried to break that promise :)
