Jauh

Aku

Kau

Aku speechless

Mana

Sering juga aku bertanya,              
Dimana harus aku tuju?                  
Sudah penuh kah ilmu didada?    
Sudah puas kah kau berada di sini?    
Di bumi gersang yang penuh dengan kelalaian,
Kealpaan,                                  
Sudah penat kah kau berlari?          
Jika belum, terus jangan berhenti,
Berhenti lah jika kau tiada kudrat lagi.


Till then,
SSK

Eid Mubarak

Salam,

So basically yeah i celebrated raya like everyone else. Eating rendang, lemang, ketupat, lontong whatsoever. Been spending my very first day raya at not so kampung which at Petaling Jaya. Hah! for those who don't know me so yeah been spending my hari raya like every year at PJ, so please don't pity me because i already get used to it heh. Didn't stay at PJ for the whole day of course. I'm following my cousins to her dad's side at Nilai, which i don't know why i followed her hmm probably because she won't be here for anytime soon :(  then back to PJ. Well like every year me and my family must visit my aunt's house at Kajang then back home feel exhausted. I slept until 1:30 p.m. Got up then get ready to go to Seremban. So yeah that's how i've been spending my first and second day of raya.

Me with Ikah :D

Mom and Pweety Sisters

i don't know what is wrong with me, and please don't judge me ehe

Till then,
SSK

Alienated

Aku suka cakap sorang-sorang. Tak kesah la cakap pasal apa pun, yeah one of my way to release stress is mumbling. Seronok cakap sorang-sorang pasal kau menanya then kau yang jawab balik. So agak-agak nampak aku cakap sorang-sorang, aku normal la tu






k, bye


Till then,
SSK

Baby & Ikah

They look so young *Ikah is the most annoying sister in the family :D

Both of them grow up beautifully *Ikah already stop being annoying :D

 

Look how tall and mature they are than me *now i'm the annoying sister

I really like this picture

Thank you for able to handle my mood swings, listen to all of my stupid jokes, layan me when there's no one wants to layan me, makes me feel like i'm the youngest in the family, taking care of me, cheering me up, always listen to me when i sometimes not really want to listen to you guys, listen to my boring music and etc...

i can't imagine my life without you guys. i love you both equally without any discrimination :D


Thank you :*

Till then,
SSK

Dead Rabbit

Recently i found a dead rabbit and decided to ask her to take a picture with me.

Ikah: Kakak, that's her eyebag. That's not makeup.
Me: lol

Till then,
SSK


*baby looks cute in this picture

Itu Bukan Soalnya

Sorry ahh, post ni mungkin agak emo sikit.


You kept saying that "what should i wear tudung kalau orang yang pakai tudung sama atau lebih teruk dari perangai i". Okay note this, pakai tudung tu tak kesah la kau baik ke, buruk ke itu dah memang sesuatu yang wajib untuk kau buat. Dia nak jadi baik ke, jahat ke itu antara dia dengan Tuhan,. Kalau kau kawan dia, kau nasihat dia kalau kau bukan dah kau diam tak payah nak banding kan dengan diri kau. Kau tak layak nak judge dia, begitu jugak aku tak layak untuk judge kau.



Tak payah nak jadi Tuhan, putuskan orang tu baik ke jahat. Kau dalami ilmu agama tu betul-betul sebelum kau nak tunding jari. Faham la takde manusia yang sempurna dekat dunia, tapi sekurang-kurangnya dia cari redha Tuhan.

Till then,
SSK

Know

Aku....

Aku tak tahu yang aku terluka ke tak, aku... tak mampu nak klasifikasikan perasaan aku. Atau mungkin aku hanya bersembunyi dari perasaan aku yang sebenar atau aku tak mahu terasa terlalu terluka atau aku... Aku sering bertanya pada diri aku sendiri, mampukah aku untuk berdiri sekali lagi? mampukah aku untuk tempuhinya sekali lagi? Aku tak boleh menggambarkan berapa besar luka aku. Teman baik ku pernah bertanya

Teman: Ida, kau macam mana? okay?
Aku: Aku... okay. Aku dah lupakan dia
Teman: Cepatnya, macam mana kau boleh move on dengan cepat?
Aku: I guess i just forget it all the memories

Aku mempunyai sesuatu aku tak tahu lah kalau benda tu dipanggil kuasa atau bukan dan aku tak tahu kalau manusia lain boleh buat ke tak. Aku cuba padam sebahagian dari memori aku, segalanya tentang dia. Aku pernah buat sekali dan aku rasa tak mustahil untuk kali yang kedua. Mungkin sebab itu banyak kenangan aku masa lalu yang aku lupa sebab aku padam memori aku. I used to remember everyone's faces when i was in my teen ages but not anymore. Aku mampu menghafal semua orang punya nombor tapi disebabkan aku nak lupakan satu nombor aku lupakan semua nombor kecuali nombor parents aku.

Aku kelihatan tenang di hadapan semua orang, aku tak suka menangis dihadapan orang. Aku hampir meluangkan seluruh masa aku untuk tidur kerana itu adalah saat aku mampu tenang setenang-tenangnya selain dari bersujud kepada Tuhan. Keluar berseorangan sambil mendengar lagu-lagu yang berkait rapat dengan perasaan ku ketika itu.

Aku bersyukur kerana tidak begitu mengenali kau. Aku bersyukur kerana kita tidak selalu berhubung, dan aku bersyukur kerana kau membenarkan aku mengenali perasaan dihargai. Terima kasih atas segalanya. Betul kata kau mungkin kita boleh berkawan, tapi aku mohon berikan aku masa. Aku tak jamin berapa lama tapi insyaAllah satu hari nanti kita pasti akan berkawan.

Till then,
SSK

2 in 1

I basically do nothing this week. I repeat NOTHING. Mum keep questioning me when am i going to find a job. So recently i've been sick for 3 days, yeah thanks to mum aha.. Luckily, it's only for like 3 days :D




I read 2 novels in one day, well i already read those 2 novels before this so i just want to read it again. The first novel is Andai Itu Takdirnya. Lately, i have lost an interest to read Malay novels especially love/romantic or any related to romance because it's too cliché. Okay back to the first novel, i really enjoy that novel. I sometimes wonder is there any girl in this world strong like the main character in this novel which is Aleya. She is too strong to face her douchebag husband and even wants to give him the third chance. The second one that i've read is Bicara Hati. It has been my all time favourite since i was errr hmm i can't remember. It's a nice story line but a bit slow.  Everyone thought that she is an illegitimate child well apparently not since her mum explain to her from A to Z bla bla bla and she live happily ever after the end. It's really a judgemental novel i guess hmm


Why am i even doing this reviewing thingy?!





oh well

Till then,
SSK

Go

What you need to know

Is to try and let it go let it go

What you need to find

Is someone who never will let you go

*Sunshine and City Lights - Greyson Chance

Till then,

SSK

Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.

Sleep *ngroh ngroh ngroh

Till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned?

1. Never said yes to the right guy
2. Don't show too much affection
3. Don't easily believe in something that is not so sure
4. Sometimes you have to listen to other people
5. Don't over-estimate on something
6. Always listen to someone who had much more experience than you
7. Never ever feel regret after you did something awesome
8. Sometimes you have to be selfish in order to save yourself from being hurt
9. Don't be too stupid
10. Should put God as your first priority

Ken Hirai - Boku Wa Kimi Ni Koi Wo Suru

*I've been listening to this lately

Till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Misery

He decided to let go the rope. Your explanation is never good enough, but it's enough for me to move on. Thank you for being honest. I'm sorry because i couldn't be your friend. Anyway, i hope you can find what you really want in this world.


I'm okay. I always used to things like this. I'm happy this way.



I don't know what is wrong with me but i really enjoy listening to this song

Till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Embracing an Awesomeness

Thank you for being there for me like all the time, ahaks.

till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Mess

Hello,

Hmm it's been a while since i wrote my last entry. I've been busy or more specifically i'm out of idea. I've been doing something i don't know should i say crazy or just plain, well sometimes it looks crazy to me but sometimes hmm i don't know i can't make up my mind. I've been dreaming about loads of things, beyond acceptable and unacceptable, writing songs: some broken and happiness. Yeah seems like i do enjoy every minutes of my life.

I've been to a place i should'nt gone to. Well i'm not really regret it, because i've met the most important person in my life which i've decided should i forget him or continue to like him after i meet him. Then later he gave me a hope, a hope that every girl desire the most. My heart thumping like crazy, never fail to feel nervous whenever we talk.

I never open my heart until 5 years later, until he came into my life. He was incredible enough to make me unlock my heart without doing or impress me with anything. He just walked straight plus talking, seriously he didn't even look at me. Later, he finally realized me and him felt things the same way. How can this happen when i don't even know him?

He finally confessed after 3 years been liking each other. We studied at different places. It's good to be far away from each other, nothing to be fight of, nothing to be jealous of. It's just that we barely known/understand each other. Hopes have been ups and down.

Lacking communication seriously affected me. It's like we never contact, it's hard usually. I don't know how long i can finally get the right answer. I'm tired, tired with all the little hopes. It's like he's giving a rope and then leave me hanging until i don't know when he's going to pull me up. I can't never say "i had enough", i'm trying to be a mature woman who can think straight and always be positive about everything.


till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin