Afraid

I feel afraid with a lot of things nowadays. I'm afraid of loneliness, what's going to happen right now and to the future. I don't want to live alone like both of my grandmothers. I've seen it, living alone without your children around you while you're happy or by the time you need them the most. It's definitely sad to see how they died without anyone besides them. But at the same time i'm afraid to get married, conceive my own child, fight over stupid things, share everything and sacrificing your whole life. The responsibilities are too much for me to handle. 

Well i guess maybe only now i think this way. Maybe in the future i might change my perception. I hope...