Know

Aku....

Aku tak tahu yang aku terluka ke tak, aku... tak mampu nak klasifikasikan perasaan aku. Atau mungkin aku hanya bersembunyi dari perasaan aku yang sebenar atau aku tak mahu terasa terlalu terluka atau aku... Aku sering bertanya pada diri aku sendiri, mampukah aku untuk berdiri sekali lagi? mampukah aku untuk tempuhinya sekali lagi? Aku tak boleh menggambarkan berapa besar luka aku. Teman baik ku pernah bertanya

Teman: Ida, kau macam mana? okay?
Aku: Aku... okay. Aku dah lupakan dia
Teman: Cepatnya, macam mana kau boleh move on dengan cepat?
Aku: I guess i just forget it all the memories

Aku mempunyai sesuatu aku tak tahu lah kalau benda tu dipanggil kuasa atau bukan dan aku tak tahu kalau manusia lain boleh buat ke tak. Aku cuba padam sebahagian dari memori aku, segalanya tentang dia. Aku pernah buat sekali dan aku rasa tak mustahil untuk kali yang kedua. Mungkin sebab itu banyak kenangan aku masa lalu yang aku lupa sebab aku padam memori aku. I used to remember everyone's faces when i was in my teen ages but not anymore. Aku mampu menghafal semua orang punya nombor tapi disebabkan aku nak lupakan satu nombor aku lupakan semua nombor kecuali nombor parents aku.

Aku kelihatan tenang di hadapan semua orang, aku tak suka menangis dihadapan orang. Aku hampir meluangkan seluruh masa aku untuk tidur kerana itu adalah saat aku mampu tenang setenang-tenangnya selain dari bersujud kepada Tuhan. Keluar berseorangan sambil mendengar lagu-lagu yang berkait rapat dengan perasaan ku ketika itu.

Aku bersyukur kerana tidak begitu mengenali kau. Aku bersyukur kerana kita tidak selalu berhubung, dan aku bersyukur kerana kau membenarkan aku mengenali perasaan dihargai. Terima kasih atas segalanya. Betul kata kau mungkin kita boleh berkawan, tapi aku mohon berikan aku masa. Aku tak jamin berapa lama tapi insyaAllah satu hari nanti kita pasti akan berkawan.

Till then,
SSK

2 in 1

I basically do nothing this week. I repeat NOTHING. Mum keep questioning me when am i going to find a job. So recently i've been sick for 3 days, yeah thanks to mum aha.. Luckily, it's only for like 3 days :D




I read 2 novels in one day, well i already read those 2 novels before this so i just want to read it again. The first novel is Andai Itu Takdirnya. Lately, i have lost an interest to read Malay novels especially love/romantic or any related to romance because it's too cliché. Okay back to the first novel, i really enjoy that novel. I sometimes wonder is there any girl in this world strong like the main character in this novel which is Aleya. She is too strong to face her douchebag husband and even wants to give him the third chance. The second one that i've read is Bicara Hati. It has been my all time favourite since i was errr hmm i can't remember. It's a nice story line but a bit slow.  Everyone thought that she is an illegitimate child well apparently not since her mum explain to her from A to Z bla bla bla and she live happily ever after the end. It's really a judgemental novel i guess hmm


Why am i even doing this reviewing thingy?!





oh well

Till then,
SSK

Go

What you need to know

Is to try and let it go let it go

What you need to find

Is someone who never will let you go

*Sunshine and City Lights - Greyson Chance

Till then,

SSK

Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.

Sleep *ngroh ngroh ngroh

Till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Day 28 – In this past month, what have you learned?

1. Never said yes to the right guy
2. Don't show too much affection
3. Don't easily believe in something that is not so sure
4. Sometimes you have to listen to other people
5. Don't over-estimate on something
6. Always listen to someone who had much more experience than you
7. Never ever feel regret after you did something awesome
8. Sometimes you have to be selfish in order to save yourself from being hurt
9. Don't be too stupid
10. Should put God as your first priority

Ken Hirai - Boku Wa Kimi Ni Koi Wo Suru

*I've been listening to this lately

Till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Misery

He decided to let go the rope. Your explanation is never good enough, but it's enough for me to move on. Thank you for being honest. I'm sorry because i couldn't be your friend. Anyway, i hope you can find what you really want in this world.


I'm okay. I always used to things like this. I'm happy this way.



I don't know what is wrong with me but i really enjoy listening to this song

Till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin

Embracing an Awesomeness

Thank you for being there for me like all the time, ahaks.

till then,
Siti Syahida Binti Kamaruddin